Breastfeeding life can be a rough one. Like so many things as an expecting mother, you go into it with expectations. You might plan, you might read books or articles, but inevitably you hold the baby in your arms and probably say what most every other new mom in the world says. "Ok, now what?" With my first son, the nurse is standing there watching me. I'm minutes post labor and already I feel the panic I'm being judged. "Did she just see me poke him in the eye with my nipple?"